A month after I had contact with the Pleiadian's, June 2010. I went to my first 3 day workshop with Christine Day. Christine Day has experiential workshops, you experience multidimensional connection and travel, it is not lecture style workshop.
One day during the workshop we were doing formation work with our team of 3 Pleiaidians. The chairs are put into groups of 4. The room held about 300 human participants. During the journeys Christine tones and holds sound frequencies, this enables the participants assistance in their connections. The experiences tend to be noisy as many in the group, use their own sounds for connection and clearing.
At the beginning of the process, I felt a sexual tingling in my groin. What? What is going on I wondered? I telepathically heard my team tell me to relax and trust them. When I realized they wanted me to feel an sexual connection during this journey, I thought, no way!!! I was totally resistant to the idea. They kept urging me to relax and trust them. I decided to go with the flow and see where this was going.
This sexual feeling started to increase. It is difficult to explain with words. The feeling was definitely sexual pleasure, but it was somehow also a spiritual experience. Like sex was braiding with spirit. The pleasure and sensations continued to increase. I was in a very blissful and ecstasy like state. It felt like the experience happened in slow motion. Everything moved very very slowly. I could feel this sexual/spiritual energy moving up my body. Eventually it went all the way up to my head. When it got to my head, I recall the energy turned into a beautiful green emerald color. These emerald colored rays went from inside my head to outside my head. They shot out of my head space like rays of green color. It was an incredible journey and experience.
When the process was over, I was left feeling shaky. I did not understand what happened to me? How did I have this suspended orgasmic like experience for 20 minutes in a group setting? What did it mean?
I wanted answers. I went over to one of the teachers. I was embarrassed to share my story, but my burning desire to understand why this happened and what it meant, matter more to me than feeling embarrassed.
She listened calmly as I nervously shared my experience. Then she gently and lovingly told me, I had experienced a kundalini awakening. I had heard of word, kundalini, but was unfamiliar with its meaning. She explained to me, in this environment, which is very safe and full of high frequencies, some people have this type of experience. She shared with me, it is an opening that happens for humans to have easier and stronger connection to their multidimensional self and family. She assured me, it was a wonderful thing and nothing to feel embarrassed about.
Today, I understand I had a pre agreement to wake up fast. I like things fast. Even though, I was new to the multidimensional world, things were unfolding so fast for me. I also, understand the public experience is apart of my contract to help humans not feel shame about sexuality and spirituality. I had first hand experience how magnificent and expansive it is to make cosmic love with a team of Pleiadians (aspects of Self).
End of February 2011, I was planning on sharing public workshops for star seeds. I had gotten 8 star race sculptures from Cynthia Crawford. I had bought a moldavite singing bowl. I was intending to open a Playground For Connection group. I wanted to multidimensionally travel and explore consciousness with people.
Somehow, I stumbled upon a video from George Kavassilas. I was mesmerized by this man, it is like he had a magnetic force drawing me to him. I saturated myself with his teachings for days. I found my energy starting to get confused. Was George teachings true? I had never heard anyone discuss the things he talked about. He shared there are dark energies manipulating us. He said, we are like puppets being controlled. He shared some of the so called light workers, Angels and ET's are really disguises, behind the masks are the dark beings. He teaches us to go to our heart for answers. He teaches us to trust no one. He teaches us not to be afraid, yet most of his stories are filled with fear. He shared in March 2013, ET's will land and take humans to Mars. ET's will trick people and many humans will follow and get on their crafts and become slaves. He shared, we might witness people we love, get on these crafts. The Earth might be without supplies of food and water, if we stay on the Earth. (This is what he said in 2011, I am not sure what he teaches today.)
His stories filled me with fear. Then I went to anger. Am I a puppet? I started experiencing intense rage. I would sit in my house alone and scream, yell and swear. I was swearing to God, Angels, or who ever would listen. The more I yelled, it seem like the more anger I tapped into. "Fuck You!" I would scream over and over again. I decided if I am a puppet, I will do nothing. I made the decision to quit. I shut down my multidimensional life. I quit my telepathic connections. I quit my multidimensional travel. I quit spending time with like minded friends meditating and connecting. I would do nothing! I was livid.
I was also afraid. I felt fear that George might be right. I felt fear for my future. I felt fear for my children. I felt fear for survival.
I wanted someone to solve it for me. I wanted someone to give me security. But, no one could help me, because now I trusted no one. I was stuck. I would not allow myself to release any energy with multidimensional activities. I trapped all the energy inside me, which I discovered later is very damaging to the physical body.
I tried to find a new hobby. I tried to find happiness with a different subject, I wanted to feel passionate about something. Nothing excited me. I was very, very, very bored. I had no creative outlet. I had zero passion and zero enthusiasm. I was bored and becoming depressed.
This whole process lasted about 4 weeks. Finally, I realized I had to do something, as I was going down a depressing hole. I finally got to a place where I decided, 'so what'. So what if there are manipulators, so what if I am a puppet, at least I was a happy puppet. I decided to take the wheel back of my car, and drive my own destination. I wanted back my sense of meaning, fulfillment and stimulation. I decided more information would come in at the right time, and I would understand this subject more completely at a different time. Until then, I was going to live again. I allowed myself to *pause. I know in the multidimensional world, things are not always explained in a linear timeline. I decided to trust all the amazing experiences I had, and not to lose them because one man's story. There were many questions I still had, but I realized, I would not live in fear of the unknown.
I connected with a local friend to have a play date. In order to explain the significance of this story, I need to back up a minute. Before I had my spiritual temper tantrum, I had been with my same friend, Jim. I had just gotten my star friend statues and I was showing them to Jim. I suggested he might want to borrow one. I was hoping he would pick the Acturian statue. For some super odd reason, earlier that day, when they came to my home, and I opened them, I felt zero connection to Acturian Being. Luckily, Jim picked him.
Now fast forward to 6 weeks later, when we are going to have our play date. I was in the room, waiting for Jim. I was really excited to be playing and connecting again with like minded friends. Jim came in carrying the Acturian statue. wow ~ I could feel his energy. Wow! I locked eyes with the statue and it was intense. I felt all this energy start running in my body. Jim and I start talking, and I am all of a sudden getting a headache. It is weird, and my headache is getting worse by the minute. We decide to start the connection. We get into the zone, and I multidimensionally went to some location. I was alone, and my head was throbbing, behind me some Being came. He put his fingers at the base of my head. The pressure from his finger instantly stopped my headache. The pain was completely gone. As he stood behind me, with his fingers touching my head/neck, I started feeling my skull move. My skull started to extend or elongate. It was a wonderful experience. I was so happy, I felt so good to be in this connection. I was fascinated that my skull was expanding, yet it felt very familiar. I was in bliss. I am conscious when I travel in the realms, and I knew Jim was trying to talk to me. I did not want to pay attention to him, as I knew I would lose the connection. Finally, I answered him and I lost the connection. Immediately my head started pounding again.
I started to feel nausea. I told Jim about my experience with my skull elongating. He looked over at the Acturian statue, he turned him sideways, so we could see his profile. He pointed to his head, and said, you mean like that? Yes, my skull had energetically morphed into same shape as my star friend. I continue to feel sick, so I decided to leave. I could not pick up and touch the Acturian sculpture. The energy coming off him was so strong, I thought I might collapse if I touched him. I asked Jim, to carry him to my car.
On the drive home, I was on a highway that was under road construction. All of a sudden I knew I had to vomit. Luckily, I had an empty container in my car, but the problem was I could not pull over on the highway. I heard a voice telepathically tell me, I was safe, I was safe. Somehow, a Being was able to handle my car while I was sick. It was the strangest experience. I know it sounds unbelievable, but it really happened. I felt so safe as my car drove down the highway and I was vomiting. Someone was helping me.
I got home and went to bed. I slept about 90 minutes and I woke up totally fine. As if, nothing had been wrong. I started to connect. I was given information that the reason I got so sick is because I had blocked my body from releasing energy. I have been playing with energy for a year, and my body is accustomed to expanding and releasing energy. All that energy had been stuck in my body, and it was like a detox when I allowed it to move during my connection. I understood at a deep deep level, I will never suppress or walk away from my multidimensional self again.
I saw how the Acturian consciousness helped me re align my body and expand my field of knowing. After that experience my fear about March 2013 changed. I didn't have answers, but I energetically had security. I had a new sense of knowing. I realized we are all Creator Gods. We each get to create our own story and time line. No one's story is superior, no one's story is wrong. Fear programs are beliefs. We can detach from a fear program at any time, if we want. I am so thankful to Mr. Kavassilas for playing an important role in my awakening. He helped me access deeper layers of myself.
I connected to my Star family in spring 2010. For about a year, all my experiences were pleasant and expansive. I was a virgin to negative or scary stories. I was clueless to conspiracy theories and abduction stories. I never protected myself, as it never occurred to me. Fear was not on my radar.
End of February 2011, I was woken up at 3:00 am. Today it is common for me to be up in the middle of night, but beginning of 2011, it was rare. I had a telepathic hit to get out of bed and go look out the window. I have never done this in the middle of the night in my life. I am not a person who thinks about looking at sky during night time.
I went and looked out my front picture window. The full moon was in clear sight. Beneath the full moon was another sphere, except it was an orange ball of light. The orange ball of light started floating down toward my house. I was in shock. I grabbed my cell phone and got photos. I watched the orange ball of light come to the end of my driveway. Then I saw a 3rd ball of light come out of the orange ball of light. This ball was transparent, and much smaller. This small transparent ball started floating up my driveway toward my picture window, where I was standing. I started to get scared. I was alone in the dark of the night. I felt vulnerable. My fear increased as the ball of light kept floating closer. I wanted to be brave, but my truth was fear. I telepathically told the ball of light, "I am afraid." The little ball stopped and a few seconds later, the little ball vanished. It simply disappeared.
My body was shaking, I was nervous and scared. The orange ball of light stayed at end of my driveway. I wasn't sure what to do. I could not call anyone in the middle of night. I wanted to be excited that I had a visit from my Star family, but the truth was I was scared. The experience activated a fear inside of me.
Little did I know at the time, I was about to embark on a new journey of learning and discovering information about our dark friends and manipulation. The one area, that had not shown up in my radar, was about to make an appearance. A few days after that contact, I hit a wall. It took me about a month to process some hidden fear and unresolved patterns. I write about that experience in the chapter called 'Acturian Consciousness Helps Me Break Out Of A Fear Program'.
Looking back, today I know my Family of Light came to set off a code in me. I have wondered which Star family came to my home? I sensed a strong Acturian frequency, and I would have labeled it that way a year ago. Today, I know the Family Of Light, holds a huge variety of consciousnesses. Names and titles often do not explain the experiences accurately. Today I refer to that night, as a visit from my Family Of Light.
February 2011 I had this intense desire to purchase ET sculptures from Cynthia Crawford and buy a moldavite singing bowl. I was determined to invest my dollars and have the physical multidimensional objects in my home. At that time, I thought I was going to start to hold workshops and introduce our star family to the public. Little did I know, I was still in training and had more to learn before it was time to go public.
I called Cynthia to place my order. Cynthia Crawford has an incredible energy. She is a natural born storyteller, and her voice and stories open codes. She is an activator. Before I told her what I wanted to buy, she says to me, "You are an ambassador." I was not super surprised to hear this, as during my telepathic conversation with Beings, I had heard this message before. Her statement made me feel good, I liked getting her validation.
When I told her I wanted 8 star friends, I could feel her hesitation. She proceeded to tell me a story of a man who ordered 2 and it was too much energy for him to process. His system got fried. I did not care, it was important to me to order all 8 at the same time. I was very concerned that all the star race I felt a connection with got included. I wanted all the star races to know how special they are to me, and no one would be left out.
It seems silly write that, but at the time, it is how I felt. Like a parent, you take all your children with you, you do not leave one behind for a later connection. Everyone matters!
Cynthia then asks me the unusual question. She wanted to know if I ever am sleeping where I wake up and I am in major pain. What? The second she asked the question, I recalled what had happened to me the night before. I told her, yes, last night, I was sleeping and I woke up with so much pain in my left wrist. It felt like it had been cut off, and I could not move in when I woke up. I had fallen back to sleep and forgotten it. She explained to me, when we are on board crafts, if they are working on our bodies and we wake up in the physical, our physical body can not hold the place of two worlds. It is very painful for our body to be in both realities while conscious.
The next Cynthia called me back. She had talked to one of her friends. That friend did a reading on me. She told Cynthia that, the reason my wrist hurt is because I had been given a type of tattoo on board. The tattoo is invisible to the human eye. She explained I had been imprinted. This imprint or coded tattoo was put in place to give me some type of abilities and protection. ( How bizarre this happen night before I place the order and that Cynthia asked me about it!)
The friend also confirmed to Cynthia, that I am spokesperson for many star races, and I could handle the whole order, it would not fry my system.
I have had many great interactions and experiences with the sculptures What I understand today is, that the physical objects help me to integrate aspects of my multidimensional self. They are visual connectors and touch connectors. Meaning to see and touch something allows integration with more of the senses. We do not need any physical object to make a multidimensional connection. All connections can happen energetically. If one does feel the desire to have a physical object to hold, smell and see, it is simply because our senses help us integrate.
May 2010 ~ two days after I received, my first star lights display in the sky from the Pleiadians, I was lead to discover the book, Pleiadian Initiations by Christine Day. In this book, Ms Day teaches a technique taught by the Pleiadians. The technique teaches multidimensional travel. The Pleiadians share, the human vessel does not have full ability to travel to certain dimensions without assistance from higher vibrational Beings. The book teaches you how to work with a team of 3 Pleiadians.
At that time, I had never heard of multidimensional travelling. I had no idea if it was easy or difficult. I had no outside influence either way, as I knew no one who traveled multidimensionally. I trusted the book, I assumed it was easy and therefore, I created an easy connection. I instantly accessed my team of 3 Pleiadians to work with.
Almost everyday for many months I connected with my team. We connected to each other in a formation. One Being to my left, one Being to my right and one Being across from me. Like a square formation.
The team of 3 each had their own style or frequency.
One day, I was at the lake by my house to connect. I liked to walk in the water and start the connection, then I would go sit on this huge rock and finish the connection. I was in the water, and I had put my cell phone inside my sports bra. This is habit I had been doing for over a year. I started to connect with my team. The Being on my left said, "No - we can not start until you get that cell phone away from your heart space." What? That was the strangest thing I had ever heard. The Being stated, I had cleared my heart space over the past 3 days and now I was creating negative electromagnetic waves in my heart space. I didn't even understand what he was talking about, and I didn't care if my cell phone was in my sports bra. "No - we will not start with you." - he expressed with a type of bossiness. I was annoyed. I finally surrendered and said, ok, I will stop putting my cell phone in my heart space, however, right now I am in water, let's just begin now and later, when I return to land I will remove my cell phone. I was impressed with my compromising skills.
"No" - he answered. The other 2 Beings were silent, as if they agreed with him, but didn't want to get involved. I gave in. I walked out of the water, got up to dry land where it was safe to leave my cell phone and removed it from my heart space. I was kind of annoyed, yet to be more honest I was actually happy I had a bossy team mate. It made me feel very confident my connection was real, as I would never even think about something like a cell phone being in my heart space. It is not how my mind functions. To this day, I have never put my cell phone any where near my heart space.
I never went back to water to connect, instead I moved on this huge rock where I can sit. When I started to connect, the Being across from me said, today before we start, we are each going to share what gifts we bring to the group. What is each one of our specialty? The Being on my left started. I bring boldness and assertiveness to the group. He has a very direct, a little military like energy. The Being on my right shared, I bring gentleness and nurturing energy. She has a very soft, kind and androgynous vibration. The Being across from me shared, I bring wisdom and balance. His energy is very shamanic like, he feels like an ancient elder, except he is super gorgeous (I have a romantic crush on him). He doesn't talk much, but you can feel his massive ability to hold space for the group. Then it was my turn, what do I bring to the group? I bring passion and enthusiasm to the group. I have a natural excitement and playful energy.
The Being across from me asked, what else do you bring to the group? hmmmm, I wondered. What else do I bring? Then the hit landed in my field and I knew the answer. I am the voice. I bring communication to the group. I can translate our experiences into the physical reality.
Later, I realized the wisdom in doing that process. It really made me understand on a deeper level the importance of my role to the group. It was not just them helping me, it was all of us as equals helping and supporting one another. Everyone plays an important role and is valuable. When we individually honor our pre-agreements, the whole group and collective benefits.
One of the first telepathic messages that got dropped into my field was "stones are radios". This happened spring of 2010. I thought it was a strange and bizarre piece of information. It made zero sense to me.
For some reason, I kept hearing in my head, "tell people, tell people". What, I thought? How do I share a message with people that makes no sense to me?
I felt like I was being tested - sort of like an initiation test. Would I share this strange and unusual message? I had a sense if I passed the initiation test, I would be given more information.
I decided to tell my sister. My sister, Kathy, and I are close, so I had no concerns she would judge me. When I shared the message with her, she instantly started laughing and making jokes. She laughingly suggested I wrap rocks for Christmas presents. When my family asked, why did you give us a rock? I can tell them, no, they are not rocks, they are radios. You can get rid of your cell phone and use your rock. We laughed, it was funny! Then she started making jokes about my needing a "white jacket". That hurt my feelings, I had not expected anyone might think I am going insane.
A few days later, I was on a group skype call with a mastermind group I was involved with then. We were each sharing, one by one, updates on our day to day experiences. When it came my turn to talk, I kept hearing in my head, "tell them, tell them". No way did I want to share this message with these women whom I really admired and respected. Yet, when I opened my mouth to share, I told them I had gotten a telepathic message that stones are radios. Silence. No one said a word. I could just feel the energy of the call changed, I felt so embarrassed. Then one of the women, Tracy, says she thought it made sense. What? How does it make sense I asked her? She told us, she had read somewhere during the time of Atlantis they used stones for communication. She thought it was crystals stones. She suggested I google crystals and Atlantis. I felt so relieved, not only did she save me from feeling like a major fool, she also gave me a piece of the puzzle.
After the group call, I googled the information. You can not even begin to imagine my shock, when I found an article that explained how Atlanteans used crystals stones as radio waves. The article confirmed the exact message I had received. My confidence and trust instantly started to increase.
I learned many important lessons from this experience. One, I learned just because something does not make sense to me, does not mean it is not true or accurate. I also learned the importance of co creating with others. Our multidimensional family works together to help each other understand, digest and receive information. Thanks to myself for having the courage to share the message, Tracy was able to give me an important piece of the puzzle. We each bring important pieces of the puzzle and we all need to share what we sense or know, to help each other. The last thing I learned and have really come to understand on a deep level is the importance of sharing or expressing information that gets dropped in our field. When we share and express these insights, messages, sensing, and ideas, then we open up more space in our field. If we dismiss and ignore these hits and clues, then our field stays full. It is also an indicator of how ready we are to receive and evolve. If we are not comfortable with insights or downloads that drop in our field, it is an indicator we are not ready to expand in our multidimensional journey. In a sense a test is given, but what I understand today, the test is not given from an outside source. The test is given from YOU. An aspect of your multidimensional self is checking in with you to see if you are ready and available.
When we try to translate experiences word for word or meaning for meaning, we lose or miss many pieces of the experience. The logical mind likes to know details. What does this mean? Who is behind the scenes? How did this experience get created? On and on, the logical mind asks questions and is looking for information to be explained, word for word and meaning for meaning.
Our multidimensional self does not communicate or translate in that manner. Our multidimensional self, gifts us with experiences that are layered with meaning, depth and connection. The experience can unfold, like a time released vitamin. Time released vitamins, the nutrients are released in slow steady increments.
Our multidimensional self communicates with packets of information or packets of storytelling. The packets are dropped into our field. The packets or frequencies are not meant to be word for word interpreted, or meaning for meaning. It is a different style of connection/communication.
It can be compared to go on a roller coaster. Most people do not try to translate that experience word for word. Most people are not inside the mental body while on a roller coaster asking questions like, who created this roller coaster? How was it created? What are the mechanics of the roller coaster? What is the speed of the roller coaster? Etc. Etc. Most people go on the ride for the experience of the ride. To fully receive the full experience of the roller coaster, ask your mental question at a different time/space.
When our multidimensional self shares packets of information or encoded images into our field, try to relax into the experience, without trying to translate or define it. Allow yourself the experience while maintaining an awareness that time/space translations are understood differently in other realities. In our physical, denser reality we have more of an attachment to time/space linear explanations. We have not been trained or conditioned to trust other aspects of ourselves that hold deeper/different understandings of the experience.
If we are not trying to process it ALL in a linear way, we can relax into knowing, it will all make sense at the right time.
First step is to be AWARE of the experience or packet of information that is dropped into your field.
Second step is to RELAX into the experience.
Third step is to allow the experience to INTEGRATE with multidimensional self.
Then, notice what you notice. I do not have exact answer of what will happen as the fourth step. Sometimes after we process the first 3 steps, then, the information we digested becomes *useful. We might use this new understanding or frequency. We might simply hold the frequency in our field that we do not consciously access. We might call on it, when we run into a playmate who can match the same vibration. We might put it on *pause until the time is right for it to become useful. There really is no solid/concrete answer on what/how/where/when the gift of the packet of information will be utilized.
Review
1) Awareness of information being dropped into your field
2) Relax into the experience
3) Integrate the information/experience
4) Unknown ~ Notice what you notice
