Marrying Myself

Many years ago, I realized I wanted to fall in love with myself.  I had been a co-dependent, trying to earn my love from others.  I decided to start receiving the love from myself first.  It takes time to fall in love with yourself.  I had habits of thoughts and behaviors that did not match self love.

Later in my journey of intentionally falling in love with myself, I thought of the marriage vows.
"I promise to love you no matter what.  I promise to be there for you, no matter what."  I thought to myself, the person I want to make a promise of unconditional love (love with no conditions) is to myself.  I got the brilliant idea I want to marry myself.  Who better to build and create this solid, unconditional relationship than myself?

I started to plan my wedding and told people about my engagement.  Some people laughed, but others instantly could feel the vibration brilliance of self marriage.  Becoming whole and complete as an individual.
I thought I it would be fun to gift myself with a wedding ring, have a ceremony and go on a honeymoon.  

As I mentioned earlier, self love takes time to integrate.  I didn't make purchasing myself a wedding ring a priority.  There are other things to purchase and do that seemed more important.  I decided to marry  myself and not worry about the outside reflections of a ring or honeymoon.

This week, I have been relaxing into a deep state of feeling my worthiness.  I have been relaxing into feeling the value of my being.  As I relax into myself, I feel a sense of complete support on all levels.  This new, deeper state of relaxing into my worth, has shifted my vibe.  

Yesterday, I unexpectedly got some free time for myself.  I had decided to play at the mall and hang out at the Barnes and Noble there.  It is one of my favorite alone things to do.  After the book store, I casually walked around the mall.  I wasn't looking for a thing, just people watching.  I decided to walk into one of favorite jewelry stores.

About 2 weeks ago, in December 2012, I was reading the The Lineage Of Light Code book.  In the book, the females start their ceremonies (a tradition started by the mystery school) with 6 blue sapphires that are put into a form of the Star of David.  This creates a portal to allow the women to enter into a sacred journey. These women are all apart of the female line or what I call, the Mary Energy. 
I was thinking to myself, I should buy myself a sapphire ring.  I went to one of my favorite jewelry stores online and checked out their sapphires.
The second, I saw this one ring, I instantly knew that is the ring I wanted for my marriage ring.  Again I dismissed it, as I wasn't going to invest money on myself at that now moment.

Now back to yesterday at the mall, I went inside this jewelry store wondering if they would have my ring.  I was shocked when I saw it in the case.  I asked the lady to open the case, I wanted to try it.  I told myself telepathically, if it fits, buy it now!  Then I disagreed with myself and said no, you have not planned on this.  My Self told myself, you are worthy.  You are supported.  You are master creator.  Receive!

The ring fit perfectly.  I went into some type of altered state of euphoria and instantly bought my wedding ring.  I floated out of the store, feeling such reverence and love for myself.  I called a friend and shared my fantastic news.  She made a wonderful observation.  The blue sapphires, represent the Mary Energy in the book.  I Married my Mary Energy (get it Married and Mary). I united and merged with more aspects of my multidimensional self.

You can call me, Mr. or Mrs. BrightStar.  I represent both the masculine and feminine aspects inside myself.  I am blended and whole.  I love myself and all my aspects without conditions!

Channeling Financial Abundance Consciousness

When I connected to the Being on my left, during my meditation, I felt a gentle energy.
I felt a fluid, liquid like gentle movement. I relaxed in this soothing energy, not sure exactly who I was experiencing. Then, I finally heard her. "I am financial abundance consciousness."

I felt this nurtured, supported, and gentle energy. I must confess, this experience would not be how I would have imagined financial abundance energy to feel. "Why?" she asked me.
First of all, I have never taken the time to think what the consciousness of financial abundance would feel like. If I were to guess, I assumed it would dynamic, powerful, and intense.

She then compared financial abundance consciousness to air abundance consciousness. I know air consciousness is abundant. I am not startled or surprise when humans tap in the abundance of air consciousness. Abundant air consciousness has a subtle gentle fluid energy too. I realized I had bought into the old belief, that financial abundant consciousness is not as easy to receive. I assumed the consciousness would be dynamic and intense because I thought it was more difficult/rare to receive.

She showed me an image of baby in a womb. She compared herself to that frequency. Inside the womb, the baby is fully supported, nutured and provided for. The baby is not required to work, earn, or do anything in order to receive these gifts. It is the baby's birth right to be fully supported.

Abundance is our birth right. It is a natural part of design of our consciousness.


We don't have to prove our worth, work hard for our worth, or convince others of our worth.
She encouraged me to swim in this emerald green lake I could see. Ask the element of water, to help you connect to the financial abundant consciousness. Set the intention that the water will help you. Water can amplify the experience so you can feel her consciousness more clearly and deeply. In the bath or shower, visual the water drops seeping into your pours to assist you to feel/know your abundant birth right.

She suggested I take time daily to connect with her frequencies. Develop a relationship with her energy field. Acclimate to the gentle, supportive, and nurturing frequency of abundant consciousness.