My Dark Night Of The Soul ~ 12 Strands DNA Project

Over the past 6 weeks I have intentionally been doing an accelerated 12 Strands DNA recoding project, from Council of Nibiru, with Jelaila Starr.
I have been Video logging it on my yoututbe channel, Sabrina BrightSTar

This is the first time, that I feel more comfortable writing, instead of verbally sharing in front of camera.

The past few weeks, I have been flowing along smoothly with the 12 Strands project. I assumed the worst was over. Then, I got hit with the biggest most emotional deep rooted, lifetime after lifetime pattern.

There is this person, I don't know him very well. Yet, ever since meeting him, I find I am triggered by him. Some of the triggers were fun and enjoyable, yet most of the triggers are painful.

I kept telling myself to stop talking to him, yet, I found myself, continually going back for more contact. It made no sense to me. It felt almost as if, I was under a spell.

Again, one day, I went back for more contact. He dismissed me. The odd thing about this connection is, he is not a communicator. He leaves conversations unfinished, then ignores discussing what happened. Logically, I see clearly we have no communication compatibility. Yet, I am drawn to keep trying to communicate with him.

The other day, I got triggered again. I was sitting in frustration, trying to figure out, what the hell is going on with me? Why can't I walk away? What is the lesson?

I hear in my head, he is a Representative. He is representing a pattern, a repeating pattern that I have had for many lifetimes. I hear in my head, to write a list of what I don't like about him.
As, I wrote the list, I hear in my head.....Who else has this pattern? Where else have you witnessed this pattern.

Can you guess the answer?
My father.
Do you know what the pattern is? Do you know what the addictive behavior that I was chasing is?

A person who is Emotionally Unavailable!

Yep, there it was, staring at me on a piece of paper.
Emotional Unavailable!

Now, the next step of the formula of compassion is to see the mirror. How is this mirroring me?
I hear in my head, "are you emotional unavailable to yourself?" No way!, I instantly disagree with this question.
Then I start to see images of myself, ignoring, running away or hiding from emotions. I read, eat, drink or sleep to avoid emotions. I can feel the surface emotions easily, yet the deep rooted, painful emotions, I avoid.

Damn ~ this is not what I was expecting. I am in shock as I realize, I attract people who are emotional unavailable to me, because I am emotional unavailable to myself. That is the mirror.

I hear in my head the question, "Do you have the courage to feel deep emotions?" "Do you have the guts to allow raw emotions to surface without running into your happiness bubble?'

Double Damn! I was able to see the mirror clearly. Ok, after taking a deep breath, I decided I would tackle this pattern. Before, I agreed to allow the emotions to fully surface, I made a few demands. I told my higher self, "if I agree to feel the full range of my emotions, I am going to need support. I asked for a boat load of unseen friends to come to assist me." I asked for Angels, fairies, animals totems, mineral kingdom, crystal kingdom, Star brothers and sisters and anyone else who would be willing to step forward to assist me. Then, I got feisty, and told my team "I demand to be greatly rewarded for agreeing to this process!"

I am not sure what made me make those depends, I guess on some level, I knew I was about to enter an emotional hell. Within, hours of agreeing to feel my emotions, I got hit with feelings, memories of childhood, past relationships, former friends, etc. The tears started falling, and falling and falling.

My children witnessed my emotional releasing. I didn't hide it from them. They both came to me, and they took turns holding me in their arms and I poured out my pain, hurt and sadness. They tenderly loved me, as if they were my parents. When we all thought I had finally cried my last tear, another round of feelings flooded in, and the break down continued.

Toward the end of it, I could actually see their hurt patterns being released too. It surprised me, as I could feel, my allowing these intense emotions, I was clearing painful patterns we all 3 carry.

I know one of the reason we do 12 Strands of DNA recoding, is because, as each one of us agrees to clear, we make it easier for collective. Each one of us, helps the whole collective, so we can clear easier and faster.

I could feel my courage to feel this emotional raw pain, was assisting the Universe. Seeing it in my household first hand, was mind blowing.
I am very close to my children, yet I can honestly share, this experience took us to a whole new level of connection. I wasn't expecting to see the wonderful side effects so quickly.

I finally went to sleep. That night, I dreamed a legion of Angels came to me. I was wrapped in white cloth, and there was an army of Angels surrounding me. My two children, were amongst the group of Angels. The next day, I woke up feeling pretty normal. Thank Goddess! A few hours after I was up, I recalled my dream. I then, heard in my head, that my two children, are here as incarnated Angels. They are 24/7 visible reminders that I am fully supported from the other realms. My heart busted open with love!

All morning, I have been seeing a dark green Porsche in my minds eye. I am not a car person, yet the visual makes me feel it has something to do with the reward I asked for. Perhaps it symbolizes speedy healing? I am not certain, yet I am going to easily accept whatever gifts the Universe wants to deliver me!

I feel normal, yet new now. I feel like I did it! I allowed myself metaphorically to be crucified emotionally. I felt the pain of all the old patterns and programs. I busted out of the mirror, and I broke the spell of Emotional Unavailable patterns.

p.s . I wanted to also share, as an adult, esp. the past few years, my father has become emotionally available. We have a wonderful relationship today.

12 Strands DNA recoding can be found at Jelaila Starr's website
http://www.nibiruancouncil.com/html/recodeoverviewarticle.html

Angel Teaches Importance of Mudras

During dream time December 28, 2011, I was visited by an Angel. She had the same energy signature of the dreams when Archangel Gabriel gave me the intel on "Kissing Meditation".

This Angel shared with me information about mudras. Using remote viewing, we went to a bedroom scene. I didn't see the couple clearly, I think it was myself, I was viewing. This Angel was showing me, the couple was about to finish or be done with their activity. She then inserted 'mudras' to their connections. The couple both participated in using mudras. They interchanged their fingertips to co-create the mudra. As the couple used this technique, their love making transformed. First thing, the timing of their activity extended dramatically. The other major thing that was obvious, was the level of their connection to each other deepened.

In the next scene, I was by myself, visiting with this invisible Angel. She was telling me, at the tip of my fingers, I hold all the power to create whatever I want. I can change the flow of energy, simple with my intention and the position of my hands/fingertips.
She was helping me remember that I hold all the magic within me. She was teaching me to remember to go within, the second I want to manifest or make any changes.

In the past, I have been given downloads about our skin and hands. Our skin holds all the
sensory receptors. Our skin is actually our real multidimensional eyes, with 360 degree view. The pads of our finger tips contain our blue print. There is no coincidence that each human has their own unique fingerprint. Our fingerprints contain our own sacred geometry.

Our fingerprints can communicate with the Universe telepathically.
This is one of the reasons, Masters (anyone connected to their Source) can lay their hands on people and give them a healing, clearing or rebooting.

Colors Are Teachers

12-6-11
I went on a interactive journey yesterday with my friends, River and Angel Boy. When we did formation work (connecting with Multidimensional Beings), a Being of rainbow color showed up. He was very tall, 8 feet. He had different blocks of color all the way up his body. At first, I tried to ask him, "Did he have a message? Why did he show up in our formation work?"

He explained to me telepathically, he doesn't talk or communicate with words. He suggested we get inside of one of blocks of color and allow the color to do the communicating. It felt like the idea, of jumping inside a swimming pool of one color. Swimming in the frequency of that color and Experience the message, not hear the message mentally.

Later in the journey, I received the message, if we change the color of one thing, we change our frequency. For example, think of the water, of the ocean. We instantly see or think of blue water. Change the color: think of an orange ocean. The second we change the color of this water, we change the pattern. We instantly feel slightly different.

Is it this easy, I thought? Is it really this simple? My colorful friend, encouraged me to continue to make new patterns, to notice the difference I would feel as I changed each objects color. I saw a purple sky, blue trees, orange ocean, red humans and pinstriped animals. I transformed all the colors in my mind, with my imagination. I instantly went into a different reality. The Colors and the Multidimensional Beings that showed up, gave us many insights and downloads about our Soul Families and our Over Soul.

It was so simple.
I am now understanding Colors are teachers.
Colors are more than adjectives that add details and beauty.
Colors are live Beings who have insights and messages for us.

Invitations To Group Parties During Dream Time

I had the most interesting dream last night.

I was invited to join a group ~ it reminded me of being invited to join a group on facebook.
I accepted the invitation, and I found myself in a world of Lights. All Lights Beings were intertwining, and blending together, like waves in the ocean. I felt Angelic Beings frequency. It was very bright, no bodies, only light swirling together. It felt like dancing in the cosmos.
I could hear names of 3D people. I knew those 3D people were playing in this group of Light Beings. I can not recall their names. They were at the party with their Light bodies, no 3D bodies.
I feel like the person who invited me to play in this group is Robert Mathieu. Here is his YouTube channel
I felt wonderful playing inside this group. I was very high and happy.
Then there was another group invitation. This group had a different flavor than first group. I recall the least information from this group.
Then, I was invited to a 3rd group. These groups felt like they belonged to a series. Like each group has it's own flavor, yet they are all connected. This group was dense. Not dense in less evolved, but dense in they had bodies. The animal totems are apart of this group. While inside this energy group, I heard in my head "Invite people to play in these groups!". I thought the message made no sense, as no one needs an invitation to play with energies. Again, I heard same message "Invite people to play in these groups!" It felt like I was being given an assignment. Not in a bossy way, rather like it is information about my mission. It still didn't make sense, as no one needs an Invitation. I heard same message again, then someone woke me up, so I would have recall of the dream.
I woke up feeling so high from dancing in the cosmos with these energies. I still am wondering what it means to invite people? I thought about something I heard Namaste Angel share. She mentioned in one facebook post, that symbols and intel are being given to us in dream time. This information can be helping us understand what we are doing in the astral planes. She shared, most humans have not been ready to process the work we do during dream time and/or having this memory, many would not be willing to wake up in 3D again. She had suggested before bedtime, we set the intention to meet/play with each other in the astral planes. Interestingly, the night of this dream, is the 3rd night, I had intentionally requested playtime with online friends.
I loved this dream! I loved dancing and playing with these families in the Multiverse. I am so grateful, I was invited to play in these groups. I am still not certain of what this all means or where it is going. For now, I am basking in the pleasure of this dream.

Happy 9 - 9!!

Happy 9 - 9 !!!
I have been excited all day!! I have been noticing since 6 -6, each month magical things happen on the two aligning days!

I love how when we notice dates ~ and expect magic to happen, our expectations are exceeded!!!

Words do not seem to capture my excitement, so instead I will just bask in a photo and hopefully anyone reading will feel the energy I am expressing!!!

Merry 9 - 9 !!

3D Rocks ~ Loving My Earth Body Experience!

In a meditation a few days ago, I got the biggest download of how awesome it is to have human body.
I was connected to higher dimensions, and talking to my Family of Light.
I could feel my Light Family jumping with excitement. As we were blending, I could feel their frequency and they could feel my frequency. It became perfectly clear to me, that all Beings enjoy experiencing different spaces.

Humans tend to meditate and do activities to get outside of their 3D body and get inside a different dimensions or states of being. We tend to think other dimensions are better or more evolved.
I could feel so crystal clear, that all dimensions / locations are important and special. I could feel my Light Orb Self, is so excited to get inside my human 3D vessel. It is really law of mutual benefit, a 2 way energy exchange that uplifts both frequencies.

It made me aware in a whole new way, how Lucky we are to have a human body. Our denser form is consider a great gift. Our 3D self has special abilities that our other dimensional selves do not get. For example, we get taste, and touch in a much more intense way! Being Human and having a human body is a freaking special blessing.

It seems the nature of life is to think the grass is greener on the other side. What if we loved our grass? What if we were not trying to get to a different locations and we totally loved and valued this 3D life?

I love to explore and I will continue to meditate and explore, however, today I feel a new sense of Love for 3D!
3D Rocks!!! I feel so content and fulfilled in this human experience. I find I am observing this human experience with new eyes. I find I am judging the experience less. 3D is not less important. Somehow, I find I am feeling less triggered by duality experiences. I find I am able to actually appreciate 3D experiences. As I appreciate this 3D life more, I feel like I am honoring and blending more with my whole multidimensional self.

Playing Inside The Universal Group Consciousness

Have you noticed how you have an idea, insight or ah-ha moment, then you discover several other people have experienced something similar?


Universal Field of Consciousness
It feels like a lake to me. A location that we jump and play in. We take a dive into the waters of this consciousness. When we are inside the lake of intelligence we are gifted with ideas and insights. It is so fun and refreshing!!

We hop out of the lake, go about our daily life and we start to discovery friends and strangers are sharing similar insights that we just received. We coincidentally stumble upon people discussing same subjects! It feels like a deja-vu.

I heard David Wilcox discuss this experience. He was saying there is evidence of a consciousness that people around the globe tap into. These different people invented the same invention. They are gifted with same invention, at similar time frames. People around the globe that do not have access to each other.

Isn't it wonderful? We can intentionally go swimming in this lake of insight and information. We can tap into whatever subjects excite us. I recently have felt a strong draw to Orbs and Light Beings.
Now, of out the blue, I am stumbling upon so many other people who are having similar excitements.
It makes me think about the Unlimited Possibilities!

I want to swim in the lake, inside this group consciousness. It excites me to know, in the privacy of my home, I can play with multitudes of Beings and Consciousnesses. I am inside a group adventure!
Want to go for a swim with me?