
During my time of questioning and confusion, I took several weeks off from meditating alone and with friends.
April, 2011, I was ready to play again. I got together with Jim to do a connection. We met at Lake Harriet Spiritual Center, in a meditation room that Jim rents. When Jim walked into the room, he was carrying one of my star friends that he had borrowed. An Acturian star friend.
I instantly felt very physical different. I could feel my body out of whack. Jim, placed our Star friend on the table, and we were chatting. Somehow, during the chat, I looked at the Star friend, straight in the eyes, and I was instantly zapped. I got hit with an invisible force, and I wasn't able to look away. This super surprised me, as when I first got this Star friend, I had no big connection with him. Now, I was mesmerized by his energy. This Star friend was so alive and charged.
My body kept feeling so much discomfort. I felt a headache, I felt nauseous, I kept having body & face twitches. Jim lead us into a meditation. I was instantly gone. The back of my scalp started to expand. It kept getting bigger and bigger. I felt intense pressure and discomfort on the base of my head. I felt a Being stand behind me, and the Being touched the base of my head.
My pain went aw

When the meditation was over, the pain came back. I wasn't sure what was going on. This was all very odd and unusual for me. I saw our Acturian sculpture and notice his head is super large. The back of his head is expanded, same as I knew my head had expanded. I knew I had been given major downloads and my body wasn't up to speed.
I left, and I found myself vomiting on the way home. I got the instant knowing that because I had suppressed my spiritual practice for weeks, it was all flowing out. Shutting myself down, all my energy had no where to go, so when I finally opened up the doors, I had an excess of energy that needed to be free.
I realized that I will never again turn off my connections. It is ok to have questions and confusions, but I run too much energy to try and shut it off. I could see, my body needs to release and allow energy to flow. I took a nap, and I woke up feeling my typical healthy self.
The discomfort was gone, but this new love and intense attraction to the Acturian energy was alive and pulsating!

Would it be possible to converse with you? I am seeking help and understanding with many things that I cannot fully comprehend.
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